Back to Default- The Best Place I find Solace

The start of chapter 26 wasn't what I hoped it would be. The first time ever I had a terrible birth-month since I became an adult and got control over happenings around me. The struggle is real but people always see a smiling Mo, some persons even think I have zero problem (Lol, if only una know sey e no too smooth for this end). 

A week to my 26th, life dawned on me. I'm one of those people who love to evaluate their previous year and count their blessings. I'm about to sound very ungrateful but for some reason, I struggled to count so much like I would on a normal year. I'm grateful for life, YES! that one dey! but hey! my businesses are not what I'd like them to be at the moment, life feels like it's on standstill, nothing is working! Argh! It's annoying! While I did this evaluation, I didn't realize I was throwing myself in a dark room. Little did I know my month was about to be ruined. 

As a jolly good fellow that I am, my birthdays are always my best days when May 3rd 2022 came, I cried for the better part of the day. Not because I received so much love and care but because I was sad. E con dey do me like sey my life no just proper and the birthday was stressing me out. 

Few people could see through me and they noticed the fake smiles while my sisters dragged me out of home but while we were out, I was lost and I didn't even want to be in their space. Days later, this feeling didn't leave me; I was feeling heartaches like my heart was going to burst but I kept dragging myself, encouraging myself to keep up. Day after day, my energy and strength started to fail me and as a person who has gone through depression before, who has been suicidal also, I tried to stay conscious and kept reminding myself that Mo, you cannot be depressed. You won't be able to handle it but laslas, I got soaked in depression. I still dey drag am but I'm grateful for friends and family. Everyone looked out for me the best way they could. 

I'm back to my first love to seek solace and always pour out my mind here till I'm finally back to who I am and not what people think I am. 

On this note, Welcome to June my dears! Please stay strong, life isn't all bed of roses, e dey rough sometimes but wetin dey make sense be say you fight with your energy to come out strong. Above all, always talk to someone! I had someone in my corner throughout May, and I'm grateful in every way for that. Eyin lovers ati readers mi, BO YA KE NI NICE MONTH O! IFE ATI INA (Have a beautiful month! Love and Light)